DARE ME

Recently I asked a friend to come and watch a movie.. Dil chahta hai.. and he said “okay, just the fun part”… for a moment I was struck by his answer.. I had not anticipated it at all…and that made me think.. why did he say that? Which makes me think of another fact that people often want to think happy thoughts.. they do not want to do anything with the negativity…

Even when they see a beggar with amputated limbs on the roadside and they just turn away or give him a five rupee coin and get rid of their own guilt … I would rather term this turning as running….running away from the truth that surrounds you. It’s weird how people just choose to look away and negate the existence of anything else around them. I do not want to be one of them.

Call me insane but I deliberately take a good look at everything especially something which seems even a bit sinister… brings me closer to the reality of life. And I think it’s pretty okay to feel what I feel when I see such things. Why? Well because it makes me stronger, it does not make me whine and run away like the people out there ignoring everything around them and complaining about their miserable lives.

I have always thought that my life has been pretty good….but I want to make it great…something to make it really matter... but I haven’t found how yet. Maybe my life is perfect and I have not realized it yet. Or Maybe I’m just running… running from the hopeless emptiness of the life I currently lead.

But the fact that even after such a long time I have not found anything yet makes me think…
Maybe it’s a tendency that we humans share, this pathetic little tendency of getting settled. I know it’s more comfortable…

It’s more comfortable here in the old hopeless emptiness …. Maybe we all deserve each other !!!

I have asked this from many people that,”Is this the life they are content with? Do they search for greater good? Are they really living what they seek? Or The biggest question.. Have they figured out what they seek?”

They just laugh at me and ask me if I am in my senses..lol.. and the ones who answer negate it all… but I never look for the what they say.. I just wait for the first twitch that comes in their expression when I ask them this... answers it all….”No one forgets the truth.. they just get better at lying.”

The danger with calling their bluff is that even if u win.. u risk them walking away from the table for good…

U know y m scared about not finding my bliss? … because then my life becomes real… and it’s not what I hoped for…real!

It is said that sometimes the only thing to do is to wrap your arms around each other and just..let go!
People come back to help you come to terms or lead the way…

When I think about letting go of my quest, I do not feel pain or sadness, only a sense of profound disorientation as if i had been kidnapped by aliens and then released unharmed a few hours later..

I see no hope if I continue like this ,I pray to the eternal power to DARE me to fulfill my quest….because at times you end up doing things that you normally wouldn’t do ...............because calling it a DARE makes it alright!